| Location | Sittingbourne, Kent |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/08/2008 |
| Date of Death | 05/08/2008 |
| Visitors | 5,285 since 27/08/2008 |
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I was 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant when my beautiful daughter was born. She weighed 1lb 5oz and had
my features. I always wanted a little girl and was so looking foward to having my little Angel. I
knew from the minute I knew I was having a girl, that I was going to call her Angel, and her middle
name Fay (the same as my mums). She was due on Nov 27th, 11 days after my 21st birthday.
My waters broke at 650 on August 4th. 1130 that same night was the last time the tiny beating of her
heart was heard. At 230 i was examined for the first time in the 14 hours i'd been at Chelsea +
Westminster Hospital. I had been trasferred from Medway Hospital that lunchtime. I was fully
dilated, but bleeding heavily. At 335 Angel-Fay was born peacefully. Her head circumference was a
mere 19cm. She was perfect, too perfect. A proper mini-me.
February 2009: I have just had a meeting with the Chelsea and Westminster Hospital. They went
through my notes and said it was obvious there was a lack of care. At one point (when I had been
buzing for 20mins) a note had been written saying "Abbie has been buzzing for 20 minutes, all
midwives are on a break", disusting. They also told me, despite my requests to be examined earlier,
by the time I was finally examined, and Angel was announced dead, she had passed through my cervix,
and was here, unbeknown to me. I'm so hurt by what I was told. They are going to use Angels story in
training, but I don't feel this is enough. This could have all been prevented, and with the correct
care Angel may have stood a chance. Having found out I am expecting a little brother or sister for
Angel, I am going to bide my time, and see what action I am able to take, not for me but for
Angel-Fay, my number 1. She needs the justice she deserves, and I will only stop when I feel a sense
of closure.
Angel-Fay,
I love you so much, it's agony that you, my first child was taken away from me. But now you'll be my
lucky star + guardian angel, true to your name.
Its never goodbye, just goodnight, All my love forever, Mummy x x x x
Goodnight Sleeping Beauty, your mummies favourite Disney Character. Love Daddy x x x x
Such a small person, such a great loss x x x x x
Please feel free to also visit my Grandad's site and light a candle or write a tribute for him. It's
http://denis-holland.gonetoosoon.org. Also I have one for my old youkie Daisy,
http://daisy-holland.gonetoosoon.org. There is now a site for my sisters dog Gizmo Holland on
http://gizmo-holland.petsgonetoosoon.org. They can also be found on my garden, Abbie xXx
3 months have passed
I cannot believe
3 months have passed
It seems so sad
How times travelled fast
Each day is a blur
Full of tears of cries
You were my little Princess
My longed for suprise
Angel-Fay
So special, so small
I carried you for 6months
And then you was taken so cruel
I cannot move on
I cannot forget
I'm only getting worse
I cannot forgive
I miss you so much
More than you know
I'll always rememeber
Come rain, wind or snow
Sleep tight Princess Angel
My pretty lady in Pink
i cannot believe how beautiful you were
It makes my heart sink
Stay with me
And keep me strong
Help me to realise
I did nothing wrong
I love you my Angel
And miss you like mad
I can't wait to see you
Until then I'll stay sad
Angel-Fay my baby
My so longed for suprise
Please start visiting me
To dry the tears from my eyes
I'll always love you, and never forget you, Love Mummy. xxxxxxxxxxx
Written for you by Mummy 5th Novemeber 2008 14:48
The Place where my Angel is xx
Fluffy clouds of pink and blue
Where fairytales and dreams come true
Where teddy bears put on shows
In the place where little babies go.
Where a choir of angels sing on high
A peaceful, soothing lullaby
And their feathers flutter down like snow
In the place where little babies go.
Where the sun is shining everyday
In a heavenly sky that’s never grey
Where love will bloom and always grow
In the place where little babies go.
Where bells will ring and hearts they soar
When a mum and dad walk through its door
Then only tears of joy will flow
In the place where little babies go
From Angel-Fay
Oh little one ,why did you go?
Didnt you realise how much mummy loves you so ?
You gave me such joy to know you were here.
then you left me ,alone ,filled with tears.
Mummy dont cry,I didnt go far.
im just helping the angels and playing with the stars.
Whenever you need me ,just close your eyes
and I will be with you ,right by your side.
Whenever your hurting just whisper my name,
and I will bring cuddles to help you each day.
Beautiful Angel.
Hope your ok up there darling.
still thinking about you everyday!
saw mummy saturday n she is missing you sooo much, i hated seeing her upset i really did.
everyone misses u so so much angel.
Take care gorgeous,
Sweet Dreams XXXXX
To my darling Angel-Fay
I'll love you forever,
I'll like you for always,
Forever and ever,
My baby you'll be.
All my love forever, Mummy xXxXx
rip little angel
Sleep, little child, sleep.
Your sould is home
deep in the heart of God.
Weep not, gentle mother, weep not.
For your angel can be found
within the song of every bird,
the bloom of every flower,
the glow of every sunrise.
In the sweet, rhythmic breath
of every newborn babe,
witness the spirit
of your lost child
who has once again become a part
of the unconquerable,
immortal Spirit of us all
thinking of you
X♥X Please pass this on to remember our little ones X♥X
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Take a moment of your day
To maybe sit and in your mind
Think of all the precious babies
Yours, theirs and mine
Those whose short lives were over
Before they had really ever begun
Those precious little bundles
Who have made us all a Mum
Their tiny lives have touched us all
And what I want to say
They have brought us all together
Each and every day
The babies whose beautiful faces
In our minds forever will be
Whose names are etched within our hearts
For anyone, the whole world to see
The babies who touched our lives
Who we think of through our tears
I hope in time we will be able to smile
When we remember them through the years
So this week while we remember
All our babies who had to go
We shall show the world we are united
And how we love and miss them so X♥X
I feel your lost!!!
i know how you feel and how the tears must flow...i lost my daugther at 22 weeks and my son at exactly 39 weeks..he was 7lb 13OZ...this is defintely a place to grieve...my heart goes out to you and your family...but i am sorry for your lose...
Poem for my princess xxxx
No one remembered
that it's been a month today
since our baby was born dead
no one called to say,
I remember....
Not even my dear husband
thought to comfort me
when my crying caused him
to think me a mystery.
But I remember....
Not one e-mail message
filled with hope and love and care.
Just inconsequential jokes
and forwards were there.
But I remember....
No one thought of me,
remembered my little baby so sweet.
But they all have their own problems
that sweep them off their feet.
But I remember....
No one remembered
that it's been a month today.
But I know and care
and I am the one who will say,
I remember!
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I carried you in hope,
The long months of my term,
Remembered the close hour when we made you.
Often felt you kick and move
As slowly you grew within me.
Wondered what you would look like
When your wet head emerge,
And at what glad moment
I should hear your birth cry,
And I welcome you with all you
With all you need of warmth and food.
We had a home waiting for you.
After my strong laboring,
Sweat cold on my limbs,
My small cries merging with the air,
You came.
You did not cry.
You did not breathe.
We had not expected this;
It seems your birth had not meaning,
Or had you rejected us?
They say that you did not live,
Register you as stillborn.
But you lived for me all that time
In the dark chamber of my womb
And when I think of you now,
Perfect in your little death,
I know that for me you are born still;
I shall carry you with me forever,
My child, you were always mine,
You are mine now.
Death and life are the same mysteries.
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Our Sweet and Precious Baby
Our sweet and precious baby
No breath for you to take
No laughter for us to hear
Our lives will never be the same
Without you in our care
Our sweet and precious baby
Forever in our hearts
Our love for you will always be
What keeps us from being apart
Our sweet and precious baby
We wanted to hold you longer
But you were not ours to keep
So in Jesus' arms is where
You will go to sleep
Our sweet and precious baby
Oh how we wanted to be the ones to kiss you,
Take care of you, watch you grow
And hold you in our arms
But instead we must say
Goodbye and learn to let you go
Our sweet and precious baby
You are our angel now princess
So be at peace my duaghter and
Always know how proud we are
To have had the chance to hold
Our angel in our arms
Our sweet and precious baby
You are in God's hands now
And Heaven will be your home
So until we meet again my Angel
Take care and always know how
Much you are loved
Love Mummy xxxxxxx
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