| Location | Sittingbourne, Kent |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/08/2008 |
| Date of Death | 05/08/2008 |
| Visitors | 5,285 since 27/08/2008 |
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I was 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant when my beautiful daughter was born. She weighed 1lb 5oz and had
my features. I always wanted a little girl and was so looking foward to having my little Angel. I
knew from the minute I knew I was having a girl, that I was going to call her Angel, and her middle
name Fay (the same as my mums). She was due on Nov 27th, 11 days after my 21st birthday.
My waters broke at 650 on August 4th. 1130 that same night was the last time the tiny beating of her
heart was heard. At 230 i was examined for the first time in the 14 hours i'd been at Chelsea +
Westminster Hospital. I had been trasferred from Medway Hospital that lunchtime. I was fully
dilated, but bleeding heavily. At 335 Angel-Fay was born peacefully. Her head circumference was a
mere 19cm. She was perfect, too perfect. A proper mini-me.
February 2009: I have just had a meeting with the Chelsea and Westminster Hospital. They went
through my notes and said it was obvious there was a lack of care. At one point (when I had been
buzing for 20mins) a note had been written saying "Abbie has been buzzing for 20 minutes, all
midwives are on a break", disusting. They also told me, despite my requests to be examined earlier,
by the time I was finally examined, and Angel was announced dead, she had passed through my cervix,
and was here, unbeknown to me. I'm so hurt by what I was told. They are going to use Angels story in
training, but I don't feel this is enough. This could have all been prevented, and with the correct
care Angel may have stood a chance. Having found out I am expecting a little brother or sister for
Angel, I am going to bide my time, and see what action I am able to take, not for me but for
Angel-Fay, my number 1. She needs the justice she deserves, and I will only stop when I feel a sense
of closure.
Angel-Fay,
I love you so much, it's agony that you, my first child was taken away from me. But now you'll be my
lucky star + guardian angel, true to your name.
Its never goodbye, just goodnight, All my love forever, Mummy x x x x
Goodnight Sleeping Beauty, your mummies favourite Disney Character. Love Daddy x x x x
Such a small person, such a great loss x x x x x
Please feel free to also visit my Grandad's site and light a candle or write a tribute for him. It's
http://denis-holland.gonetoosoon.org. Also I have one for my old youkie Daisy,
http://daisy-holland.gonetoosoon.org. There is now a site for my sisters dog Gizmo Holland on
http://gizmo-holland.petsgonetoosoon.org. They can also be found on my garden, Abbie xXx
xox
Hello darling.
sorry i havnt wrote in a while i have been soo busy.
but just wanted u 2 no i still always think about u and wish u could be here with your family.
hope ur havin fun up there, ur such a beautiful little girl.
i hope i'll get 2 meet u when i reach heaven!!
love always darling xxxx
Love you + miss you Angel. Aimees grandad come to heaven today, so theres another friend for you. Love you princess xXx
Mummys mobile
Mummys mobile wont let me light a candle. Im going to bed now baby. Good night sweet dreams. Miss you + love u xXx
She was so beautiful.
I am so sorry for your loss, it should have never happened. Just know she is sending you love from heaven.
Although your darling daughter
Was with you just a while
She'll live on in your hearts
With a sweet remembered smile.
God Bless and be peaceful little Angel-Fay x
Mummys mobile
Mummys mobile wont let me light u a candle sweetheart. All i want to say is that i love you + wish you couldve come shopping with mummy + aimee earlier. Love you xxxx
My Darling Daughter
Hello my beautiful little Girl, Its your Daddy. Not a day goes by without me thinking about you and wishing you was here with Mummy and I, we would have had so much fun the 3 of us. Daddy loves you so much and I wish now I had made more of the time we had 2gether when you was with Mummy. I feel that I have let you and Mummy down and I just I wish I had the opportunity to tell you how much I really do love you and how much im hurting deep down because your not here. We will meet again Angel-Fay and I cant wait for that day. Love you always and forever your Daddy. XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
Your Due Date
Happy Due Date Sweetheart...
Not a day goes by
When I don't dream
Of what things should be
Oh, how good they do seem
You were due today
To come and meet me
To have a life time of cuddles
With mummy and daddy
Each day is so hard
I just want to die
All I ever do Angel
Is think of you and cry
I question myself
Of why you left
I want to scream
"Help me there's been a theft"
My princess has gone
My dreams have been crushed
I want to be with you
And be with you I must
You were so perfect
My gorgeous Angel Fay
So small and peacful
I tbink about you everyday
My heart has broke
I miss you so much
I can't even smell your hair
Or even your skin I cant touch
I cant do all these things
Another mummy can do
All I want is to be happy
And be up there with you
34 weeks ago
I saw a thin blue line
And then 16 weeks ago
I found out you had died
Such a small person
Her death so hard to deal
No one can understand
Just how mummy feels
All our little games
Our unique and special bond
In such a small time
of eachtother we had grown fond
You would kick and I would poke
And this would last all night
I'd lay listening to your heartbeat
And you'd kick and give me a fright
I miss you so much
And each day I shed a tear
Thinking of my darling daughter
Whom today should be here.
RIP Angel xxxxxx Love Mummy xxxxxx
Missing u Angel. dont worry we will c u again sum day.
they say time flies when ur having fun. so jus keep playing in the clouds. Uncle Guy
Mummys' Birthday
It's Mummys birthday today, and you won't believe how much I miss you. I'm 21 today, and you was on top of my birthday wishlist but noone could get you for me.
I'm so sad without you and miss you like crazy. My beautiful, darling daughter, what did I do to deserve this. You were the best thing that could've ever happened to me and when I see a picture of you, you're so gorgeous and it makes me so sad, yet I have to smile, you're just like me.
I miss you Princess, we'll be together soon.
Love Mummy xxxx
a poem for my angel
Auntie cant do poems but for you ill av a go
cos i love u little angel and i want you to know
its been 3 months now since we said goodbye
and almost everyday i have a little cry
We was gonna play and laugh me and you
i was gonna find us loads of stuff to do
pretend i was a train like i did for ur mum
bursting with giggles till it hurt ur tum
sing songs to you till you couldnt listen no more
then finish off wiv a cuddle on aunties floor
before i go angel fay i want you to know
that mummy and all of us love you so
whilst you and grandad are lookin down
dont be sad when you see us frown
its just because we are so sad
losing you has made us mad
we'll never forget you little one
we will meet again when our lives our done
hope you liked aunties poem not as good as mummys but anything for you ,goodnight beautiful auntie luc xxxx
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