Angel -Fay Lucie Holland

2008 - 2008
LocationSittingbourne, Kent
Age0
Cause of DeathStill Birth
Date of Birth05/08/2008
Date of Death05/08/2008
Visitors5,285 since 27/08/2008
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I was 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant when my beautiful daughter was born. She weighed 1lb 5oz and had
my features. I always wanted a little girl and was so looking foward to having my little Angel. I
knew from the minute I knew I was having a girl, that I was going to call her Angel, and her middle
name Fay (the same as my mums). She was due on Nov 27th, 11 days after my 21st birthday.
My waters broke at 650 on August 4th. 1130 that same night was the last time the tiny beating of her
heart was heard. At 230 i was examined for the first time in the 14 hours i'd been at Chelsea +
Westminster Hospital. I had been trasferred from Medway Hospital that lunchtime. I was fully
dilated, but bleeding heavily. At 335 Angel-Fay was born peacefully. Her head circumference was a
mere 19cm. She was perfect, too perfect. A proper mini-me.

February 2009: I have just had a meeting with the Chelsea and Westminster Hospital. They went
through my notes and said it was obvious there was a lack of care. At one point (when I had been
buzing for 20mins) a note had been written saying "Abbie has been buzzing for 20 minutes, all
midwives are on a break", disusting. They also told me, despite my requests to be examined earlier,
by the time I was finally examined, and Angel was announced dead, she had passed through my cervix,
and was here, unbeknown to me. I'm so hurt by what I was told. They are going to use Angels story in
training, but I don't feel this is enough. This could have all been prevented, and with the correct
care Angel may have stood a chance. Having found out I am expecting a little brother or sister for
Angel, I am going to bide my time, and see what action I am able to take, not for me but for
Angel-Fay, my number 1. She needs the justice she deserves, and I will only stop when I feel a sense
of closure.




Angel-Fay,
I love you so much, it's agony that you, my first child was taken away from me. But now you'll be my
lucky star + guardian angel, true to your name.
Its never goodbye, just goodnight, All my love forever, Mummy x x x x

Goodnight Sleeping Beauty, your mummies favourite Disney Character. Love Daddy x x x x

Such a small person, such a great loss x x x x x


Please feel free to also visit my Grandad's site and light a candle or write a tribute for him. It's
http://denis-holland.gonetoosoon.org. Also I have one for my old youkie Daisy,
http://daisy-holland.gonetoosoon.org. There is now a site for my sisters dog Gizmo Holland on
http://gizmo-holland.petsgonetoosoon.org. They can also be found on my garden, Abbie xXx


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Beautiful baby Angel.

Please watch over Mommy and Daddy, they love and miss you so very much.

Sweetest Dreams Baby Girl

Love Deb xXx

Debbie Fear (Family Friend) February 18, 2009

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My thoughts are with you and your family always xxx

Kayden Buckleys Mummy (Friend) February 17, 2009

Mickey Mouse for my baby xxxx

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Your first holiday inside mummy, and it was this mouses home xxxxxx

Miss you so much xxxxxx

Mummy To Angel Holland (Mummy) February 11, 2009

Twinklin Star xxx

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Love from Vicky xxx

Kayden Buckleys Mummy (Friend) February 10, 2009

Heavens Playground xxx

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There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all the children go
It’s a place that’s full of laughter
Unlike this world here below
There’s a playground up in Heaven
Where all our angels play
And the hearts there are so happy
Unlike our hearts feel today
There’s a garden up in Heaven
Where the roses blossom still
While below it feels like winter
All the angels feel no chill
In that garden up in Heaven
You will never find a tear
How we wish we could be with them
Or we still had them down here
There’s no crying in that playground
Just their happy faces there
There’s no pain and there’s no heartache
There’s no illness or despair
They’re too busy with their playing
They’re too happy making friends
It’s their parents wanting answers
And their broken hearts to mend
As they play in Heaven’s playground
All our little angels sing
They don’t question why they’re up there
They don’t ask for anything
All our children play together
In that playground in the sky.

♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫ ♥♫♥♫

Love vicky xx

Kayden Buckleys Mummy (Friend) January 27, 2009

angel footprints

These are my footprints,
So perfect and so small.
These tiny footprints,
Never touched the ground at all.

Not one tiny footprint,
For now I have my wings.
These tiny footprints were meant,
For other things.

You will hear my tiny footprints,
In the patter of the rain.
Gentle drops like angel's tears,
Of joy and not from pain.

You will see my tiny footprints,
In each butterflies' lazy dance.
I'll let you know I'm with you,
If you just give me a chance.

You will see my tiny footprints,
In the rustle of the leaves.
I will whisper names into the wind,
And call each one that grieves.

Most of all, these tiny footprints,
Are found on mommy's heart.
'Cause even though I'm gone now,
We'll NEVER truly part.

Kayden Buckleys Mummy (Friend) January 25, 2009

We do not need a special day
To bring you to our minds.
The days we do not think of you
Are very hard to find.

Each morning when we awake,
We know that you are gone.
And no one knows the heart ache
As we try to carry on.

Our hearts still ache with sadness
And secret tears still flow.
What it meant to lose you
No one will ever know.

Our thoughts are always with you,
Your place no one can fill.
In life we loved you dearly;
In death we love you still.

Love vicky xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

Kayden Buckleys Mummy (Friend) January 23, 2009

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SLEEP TIGHT LITTLE ANGEL XXX

LOVE MUMMY XXXXXX

Mummy To Angel Holland (Mummy) January 22, 2009

Angel,

Not a day goes by when you are not in my mind or heart. Each day I cry for you, and my arms will ache forever to hold you.

Love you Princess, Love Mummy xXx

Mummy To Angel Holland (Mummy) January 20, 2009

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Hello Angel..
Hope your ok up there.
thinking about u all the time!!
miss you!! even tho i never met you , which sounds strange i suppose!
really wish you could be here with your family..
they all love and miss u so much!
hope ur getting better treatment up there than we get dwn here tho hehe!
Sweet dreams.
Love you loads xxxx

Charlotte Pearce (Friend) January 14, 2009
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