| Location | Sittingbourne, Kent |
| Age | 0 |
| Cause of Death | Still Birth |
| Date of Birth | 05/08/2008 |
| Date of Death | 05/08/2008 |
| Visitors | 5,198 since 27/08/2008 |
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I was 23 weeks and 5 days pregnant when my beautiful daughter was born. She weighed 1lb 5oz and had
my features. I always wanted a little girl and was so looking foward to having my little Angel. I
knew from the minute I knew I was having a girl, that I was going to call her Angel, and her middle
name Fay (the same as my mums). She was due on Nov 27th, 11 days after my 21st birthday.
My waters broke at 650 on August 4th. 1130 that same night was the last time the tiny beating of her
heart was heard. At 230 i was examined for the first time in the 14 hours i'd been at Chelsea +
Westminster Hospital. I had been trasferred from Medway Hospital that lunchtime. I was fully
dilated, but bleeding heavily. At 335 Angel-Fay was born peacefully. Her head circumference was a
mere 19cm. She was perfect, too perfect. A proper mini-me.
February 2009: I have just had a meeting with the Chelsea and Westminster Hospital. They went
through my notes and said it was obvious there was a lack of care. At one point (when I had been
buzing for 20mins) a note had been written saying "Abbie has been buzzing for 20 minutes, all
midwives are on a break", disusting. They also told me, despite my requests to be examined earlier,
by the time I was finally examined, and Angel was announced dead, she had passed through my cervix,
and was here, unbeknown to me. I'm so hurt by what I was told. They are going to use Angels story in
training, but I don't feel this is enough. This could have all been prevented, and with the correct
care Angel may have stood a chance. Having found out I am expecting a little brother or sister for
Angel, I am going to bide my time, and see what action I am able to take, not for me but for
Angel-Fay, my number 1. She needs the justice she deserves, and I will only stop when I feel a sense
of closure.
Angel-Fay,
I love you so much, it's agony that you, my first child was taken away from me. But now you'll be my
lucky star + guardian angel, true to your name.
Its never goodbye, just goodnight, All my love forever, Mummy x x x x
Goodnight Sleeping Beauty, your mummies favourite Disney Character. Love Daddy x x x x
Such a small person, such a great loss x x x x x
Please feel free to also visit my Grandad's site and light a candle or write a tribute for him. It's
http://denis-holland.gonetoosoon.org. Also I have one for my old youkie Daisy,
http://daisy-holland.gonetoosoon.org. There is now a site for my sisters dog Gizmo Holland on
http://gizmo-holland.petsgonetoosoon.org. They can also be found on my garden, Abbie xXx
xxxx
Still thinking about you angel.
your little sister is beautiful, just like u was!!!
always thinking of u angerl.
love ya always xxxxxx
You're a big sister
Hello my darling Angel-Fay,
Mummy is sorry she has not been here much but she has had a suprise come along, which I am sure you know about.
On 19th August 2009, precisly 2 weeks after your first birthday, your little sister arrived.
She was born 4 and a half weeks early, and arrived at 6:20 am.
She weighed 6lb 10oz so was a nice big strong girl, which I know is all thanks to you.
Mummy and Poppy had to stay in hospital for 5 days as Poppy lost a lot of weight, but she is now steadily putting on roughly an ounce a day.
Thank you so much for sending me this precious bundle. She is your double and I am so thankful for that.
Each day I look at Poppy and she her big sister and it makes me smile as I know that you are never far away.
You will alway be my special girl, and I will never stop loving you.
Love always,
Mummy xxxxxxxxxxxx
Congratulations big sister
Hey beautiful girl, congratulations on becomming a big sister, and well done for doing such a good job looking after her and mummy! She looks just like you as I am sure mummy has told you!
sleep well little Angel
lots of love, mummy's friend Siobhan xxx
Congratulations
Hey Angel,
Congratulations Big Sister. I'm very happy that you kept your new baby sister Poppy-Angel safe and sound for your mummy. She looks just like you, a beautiful perfect little girl. Take care of her and your mummy always and forever. Your mummy misses you so much.
Xoxo Lukas & Noah's Mummy Jenn ^j^
A Birthday Poem for Angel, from Mummy xxxxxx
As a mummy cries a silent tear,
For her baby who had died,
A year ago on that same day,
Her heart breaks more inside.
But up in heaven her baby plays,
So happily and carefree,
Celebrating her 1st birthday,
She wishes her mummy could see.
Shes running round and playing,
And bouncing on her Grandads knee,
Shes asking her Grandad how she can say,
"Mummy, please don't cry for me".
"Although I miss you oh so much,
I am very happy here,
My birthday is just as special,
So please don't shed a tear".
"I'm up here playing with all my friends,
I've had lots of presents too,
But the one thing I want the most,
Is no more tears from you".
The mummy lays there in her bed,
Dwelling on what should be,
But deep inside she feels a warmth,
And she knows its her darling baby.
Mummies lying here Angel,
Hoping the above is true,
Happy Birthday my darling girl,
And know how much I miss you.
Written on 4th August 2009, at 23-55.. 3 hours and 30 mins before Angel-Fay
Happy Birthday to you in heaven
words always seem so hard to find, when i see the sadness in your mummys eyes, but i truley believe you are the star that shines at night...the one that we all see shining so so bright!!...you twinkle to get your mummys attention....to show her that you are there!!....you may not be here to hold and to touch, but your spirit lives within us all of the people that would of loved you so!!...im looking outside now as i write this and all i can see is the sun shining, peacefulness and 1 beautiful butterfly flying from leaf to leaf...peacefully and happily playing!!....you have done that and that will be my memory of you today on your 1st birthday....and im sure everyone of us today will see or hear something that will be a true memory of you!!....lots of love deli xxxxxxxx....my candle will burn today in memory of a princess x
one year old today
auntie luc hasnt wrote to you in a while darling angel but that doesnt mean i dont think of you every day because i do, and talk to you every night before bed, and every night when aunties out the back smoking i look up into the sky and think of you and grandad denis and sure enough there shines our star bright in the sky and i smile cos i know thats you and grandad watching over us.dont be sad when you see us cry its just because we love and miss you so much, but i know you are having all our love from grandad and he is looking after you just fine.AT 40clock this morning a year ago nanny lisa phoned me and said you were born, my heart broke losing you as did your poor mummy and daddy,nanny lisa uncle guy and Jay but my heart must of mended a bit cos tonight its broken all over again. i love you angel-fay and will forever. auntie luc xxx
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